Overthinking, OVER

Song of the Moment: "Don't Rain on My Parade" -- Glee Cast Version

Mood: content

"Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets."

I tend to overthink things. I find myself obsessing over the little stuff, and it's not a good idea. One thing I find myself thinking about constantly is my current situation.

So I'm going to get this out, once and for all, and try my best to be done with it.
If you want to read on...

I'm so sick and tired of everything that is drama in my life. I just want to wash myself clean of it all.
I had a friend tell me the other day that I needed to move past the hurt. But the thing is, I don't feel hurt anymore. Hell yes, I feel angry, I feel betrayed.  I've felt nothing but hurt for the past 4 months, but I think I'm moving past it now. I believe hurt is something you feel when you care about someone more than yourself and at this point, I feel nothing for him. Is that so bad? I think that after a point-- you just want to be rid of things that have hurt you so much. I'm a very emotional person, prone to break down over petty things. But I've always said the minute I stopped crying over something, then I knew I was done. That's where I'm at now. I truly can't remember the last time I cried over Bill.

I also feel like over the past year, I've been subconsciously preparing myself for something like this. Understand I had no idea this was coming, but I also felt like I was trapped for quite some time. I never would have said it out loud, but things got to be so bad at points that I honestly couldn't see things ever getting better. How terrible is it that I had no hope for the future?

Now, I have hope for the future. More hope than I've ever known. Things are starting to look up for me, and time will only tell what amazing things this life has in store for me.

Speaking of no regrets-- I'm working on that. I've signed up for a cooking class and I'm trying things I've never tried before and finding that I like it. I planned on writing a lot more, but for the first time in a while-- my mind is at peace. Here's looking at you, kid. ;)

♥ tiffany renee